{"id":16,"date":"2019-04-09T22:52:00","date_gmt":"2019-04-09T22:52:00","guid":{"rendered":""},"modified":"2020-06-18T12:42:05","modified_gmt":"2020-06-18T12:42:05","slug":"promise","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/promise\/","title":{"rendered":"Promise"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\u015eefin Tavsiyesi: Scorpions – Follow Your Heart<\/a><\/div>\n

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“This is the time for yourself to be free<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n
You gotta follow your heart<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n
This is the time in your life and it’s never too late<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n
To see the light in the dark<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n
You gotta follow your heart”<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n

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Bol bol gezdik seninle son d\u00f6nemde de\u011fil mi dostum? Biliyorum, \u00e7ok yordum seni yollarda ama inan elimden geldi\u011fince k\u0131sa tutmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum, s\u0131k\u0131lman\u0131 istemem neticede. Bug\u00fcn birka\u00e7 al\u0131nt\u0131 yapas\u0131m, kanatlar\u0131m\u0131 bu f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 havaya inat edercesine a\u00e7as\u0131m ve bu sava\u015f\u0131n hala bitmedi\u011fini kan\u0131tlamak istiyorum, hem sana, hem kendime. <\/span><\/div>\n

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Son d\u00f6nemde fark etmi\u015fsindir belki, r\u00fczgar fazla y\u0131pratt\u0131 kanatlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, de\u011fil u\u00e7mak, indi\u011fimiz yerde durmak bile zor geldi, okyanusun en dibine gidiyormu\u015fuz gibi, \u00e7aresizce buz da\u011f\u0131na ilerleyen Titanic gibi…<\/div>\n
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Evet, \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 kas\u0131tl\u0131 se\u00e7tim her zaman oldu\u011fu gibi, ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z olan enerjiyi verecek s\u00f6zleri var, temposu var, ihtiyac\u0131m\u0131z olan en \u00f6nemli \u015fey olan umut var. H\u0131zla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyoruz dostum, b\u00fcy\u00fck planlar, b\u00fcy\u00fck ad\u0131mlar dedim, gerekli ad\u0131mlar\u0131 atacak f\u0131rsat\u0131 vermedi adeta ya\u015fam bana, h\u0131rsl\u0131 bir eski sevgili tokad\u0131 gibi, de\u011fi\u015fik bir his. \u00d6yle ki kendimi sorgulatacak bir tokatt\u0131 bu, t\u00fcm kararlar\u0131m\u0131 sorgulatacak bir tokat! \u00c7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, karamsar oldu\u011fum onca zaman bana bir \u015fey kazand\u0131rmad\u0131, kazand\u0131rmayacak. Karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n lanetini k\u0131rmam gerek ve bu sadece ac\u0131 \u00e7ekerek ger\u00e7ekle\u015fecek, g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Yapmam gereken sabredip hedeflerimde \u0131srarc\u0131 olmak. \u00c7ok sevdi\u011fim ve eminim senin de sevdi\u011fin bir yazar\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi;<\/div>\n


\n<\/b>\u201cGecenin en karanl\u0131k an\u0131, \u015fafak s\u00f6kmeden az \u00f6nceki zamand\u0131r.\u201d <\/b><\/span>
\n-Victor Hugo<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n

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Biliyorum, benden \u00e7ok duyuyorsun bu s\u00f6z\u00fc, hatta \u015fu k\u00f6t\u00fc espriyi yapman\u0131 da anlay\u0131\u015fla kar\u015f\u0131layabilirim: “Galiba kutuplarda ya\u015f\u0131yoruz zira g\u00fcn bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ayd\u0131nlanm\u0131yor…” Ah, kara mizah… Tamam, hakl\u0131s\u0131n uzun zaman oldu g\u00fcne\u015f bu diyar\u0131 ziyaret etmeyeli, biz de gecede kaybolmaya al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f olabiliriz onun yoklu\u011funda, kendi dert denizimizde. Ama bu karanl\u0131k sonsuza dek s\u00fcrmeyecek, bunu sen de biliyorsun ve evet biliyorum daha k\u00f6t\u00fcye gidemez dedik\u00e7e daha da bat\u0131yoruz, daha fazla ne olabilir dedi\u011fimiz her an ya\u015fam\u0131n bize kulak ast\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlara denk geliyor sanki, \u00f6yle de\u011fi\u015fik bir bat\u0131\u015f belki de bat\u0131r\u0131l\u0131\u015f…<\/div>\n
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Bu karar\u0131 al\u0131rken beni bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceye en \u00e7ok iten neydi biliyor musun? Bu kadar direndikten sonra pes etmek. E\u011fer en ba\u015f\u0131nda pes etseydim olurdu, zaten denememi\u015f olurdum. \u0130lerde durup da ge\u00e7mi\u015fe bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda pi\u015fman olmak istemiyorum, pes eden birini de\u011fil, pes etmedi\u011fi i\u00e7in kazanan birini g\u00f6rmek istiyorum. Belki ba\u015faramam, o g\u00fcne\u015fli g\u00fcnlere \u00f6mr\u00fcm yetmez, bu da bir olas\u0131l\u0131k ama pes etmek kadar koymaz hi\u00e7 biri a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 ve ben karar verdim, ne olursa olsun, pes etmeyece\u011fim ve senin de etmemen i\u00e7in elimden gelen her \u015feyi yapaca\u011f\u0131m. Uzayl\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc! Hatta ve hatta The Doctor S\u00f6z\u00fc! Sana se\u00e7ti\u011fim ismin bir s\u00f6z oldu\u011funu s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim, gel tekrar an\u0131msayal\u0131m o s\u00f6z\u00fc:<\/div>\n

“Never be cruel or cowardly,<\/span><\/b><\/p>\n

Asla ac\u0131mas\u0131z ya da korkak olma!
\nNever give up, never give in!<\/b><\/span><\/div>\n
Asla pes etme, asla teslim olma!<\/span><\/div>\n
Remember, hate is always foolish and love is always wise.”<\/span><\/b><\/div>\n
Unutma, nefret daima aptalcad\u0131r ve sevgi daima bilgedir.<\/span><\/div>\n

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Yine al\u0131nt\u0131larla bo\u011fdum yaz\u0131y\u0131, biliyorum ama daha fazla uzatmayaca\u011f\u0131m dostum. Beni bilirsin, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tutmak ad\u0131na elimden geleni yapar\u0131m. Benden ka\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131n yok \ud83d\ude42<\/div>\n
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<\/a>Sana vedam\u0131 \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fim foto\u011fraflardan biri ile yapaca\u011f\u0131m, kendim gibi hafif yamuk perspektifimden bir foto\u011fraf ile. Kendine dikkat et dostum ve dayan, g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 elbet g\u00f6rece\u011fiz, \u00f6yle ya da b\u00f6yle!<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u015eefin Tavsiyesi: Scorpions – Follow Your Heart “This is the time for yourself to be free You gotta follow your heart This is the time in your life and it’s never too late To see the light in the dark You gotta follow your heart” Bol bol gezdik seninle son d\u00f6nemde de\u011fil mi dostum? Biliyorum,…<\/p>\n

—<\/span>Ben biraz daha bakay\u0131m buna—<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":47,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[6,7,3,2,5,8,4],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/04\/P_20180101_175733-01_optimized.jpg?fit=576%2C1024","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=16"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/47"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=16"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=16"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.cagataydemircioglu.com.tr\/cninzihni\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=16"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}